"Accept everything about yourself - I mean everything,
You are you and that is the beginning and the end - no apologies, no regrets."
Henry A. Kissinger
As the year rolls around to an end there are things that I've done ( or haven't done for that matter ) that I tend to fixate on; horrid habit to get into because then I can't really think of anything else. No matter, life goes on and with this in mind I came across the quote above and felt it was relevant to my current situation. I can't change the past, but I can accept it and move forward. Learning from my mistakes (or at least keeping an open mind about my mistakes) is how I will slowly but surely work my way to accepting everything about me.
This past year was interesting as well as a bit mundane. There were a few wonderful times filled with sunshine, joy and laughter. As well as dark times filled with tears, anger and unrivaled rage (seemingly out of no where might I add). Feels ran amuck and I honestly had no idea how to deal, go figure. Spend enough time ignoring your feelings and when they do appear you freak the fuck out. Perhaps this is a tale I will tell another time.
In other news, I learned a great deal about myself this past year. What I'd like as well as what I would not like. Taking action is always easier said than done, so we shall see just how far I manage to get on the path of change. Now is the time for goal setting and so I will set the ultimate goal:
Search for Sunshine.
Sunshine is a term I have decided to use for what makes me happy, what drives and fuels me, what gives me warmth in the depths of my heart and soul. I had that once, but it was so very long ago I didn't think it possible to attain again. However; I caught I glimpse of it not too long ago and I want more. I forgot what it felt like and now I have a hunger and thirst for the nourishment only sunshine can provide.
This is my mission, goal and quest for the upcoming year. Operation Search for Sunshine has commenced and I will work toward that end goal of being able to find it once again.
I wish you all a bright, successful future as well as good health and happiness.
Remember to do you, its the only way you can be.
This past year was interesting as well as a bit mundane. There were a few wonderful times filled with sunshine, joy and laughter. As well as dark times filled with tears, anger and unrivaled rage (seemingly out of no where might I add). Feels ran amuck and I honestly had no idea how to deal, go figure. Spend enough time ignoring your feelings and when they do appear you freak the fuck out. Perhaps this is a tale I will tell another time.
In other news, I learned a great deal about myself this past year. What I'd like as well as what I would not like. Taking action is always easier said than done, so we shall see just how far I manage to get on the path of change. Now is the time for goal setting and so I will set the ultimate goal:
Search for Sunshine.
Sunshine is a term I have decided to use for what makes me happy, what drives and fuels me, what gives me warmth in the depths of my heart and soul. I had that once, but it was so very long ago I didn't think it possible to attain again. However; I caught I glimpse of it not too long ago and I want more. I forgot what it felt like and now I have a hunger and thirst for the nourishment only sunshine can provide.
This is my mission, goal and quest for the upcoming year. Operation Search for Sunshine has commenced and I will work toward that end goal of being able to find it once again.
I wish you all a bright, successful future as well as good health and happiness.
Remember to do you, its the only way you can be.
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